Friday, December 21, 2012

Christmas Miracles

What a year this has been! Full of ups and downs, but constant in great family, good friends, and loving service. As we reflect on the year our hearts are honestly filled with gratitude for everything that we have been blessed with. I am not much of a decorator, but this year I tried to get more in the Christmas Spirit by doing a better job making it feel like Christmas in our home. Our decorations were not much, but they were the most I've ever done:) Here are some pics of my attempts:










Britton is growing like a weed and getting more and more cute each day. He is our joy and our purpose in all that we do. I am so grateful for a good husband that understands and takes seriously his role as a father. Jeremy has been busy on his break from school making laminated cut outs for our family home evening lessons. It has been fun to watch him work so hard in an attempt to help Britton learn the basics of the gospel. It makes me happy to know that he and I are a team in teaching Britton. He is a fantastic father and I couldn't ask for a better husband.



Our greatest blessing this year came about in the latter end of the year. Jeremy and I have been trying to have a another baby for 18 months. The last 10 months have included month after month of medications and doctor's appts. It has been stressful and hard. Our last treatment included an HCG shot which is by far the most miserable I have ever been. The side effects were awful and not conducive to making a baby;) We are grateful to announce, however, that it was all worth it. We are pregnant and very excited about it. We found out on my birthday and it was by far the best present I have ever received. We had our 12 week appointment this week and it appears that all is well. Baby B version 2.0 is due in July and we could not be happier. I like to credit our success to the magic of Disneyland, but Jeremy tells me that is very inappropriate and that I shouldn't share that with others. I don't think he'll mind if I blog about it though:)  I am beyond excited for Britton to have a sibling. He knows that the baby is in mommy's tummy, but I don't think he has any idea what that means. His little world is going to be turned upside down and I hope that he adjusts well!  

I may joke about the magic of Disney, but I do know where our blessings come from. I am so grateful to my Savior. Throughout this journey He has been by my side comforting me, reassuring me, and teaching me. This Christmas season I felt His love in greater abundance and it is my hope that I can live up to the blessings He has given me. I pray that I can raise my children to be good citizens and loyal servants of the Lord. I pray that I can become the person God wants me to become and serve others the way He would want me to.  I don't know what I would do without my faith, my husband, and my family. They are everything to me and I am so thankful for all that we have. May the Spirit of Christmas always live in our hearts and may we always give thanks for tender mercies of our Savior! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Halloween Fun

This year we got a special treat. Jeremy got to take Halloween night off so we got to go trick or treating as a family for the first time. Jeremy spent the day teaching Britton to say trick or treat...he perfected it until we got to people's doorsteps and then he got shy.  It was pretty cute though.  Jeremy is such a good dad and Britton absolutely adores him. 

Of course Britton had to be a train for Halloween. He literally walked down the "tracks"  a.k.a the sidewalk yelling, "Choo-choo".  He is the cutest Thomas the Train I have ever seen. 







We had a great Halloween and I am so glad we got to be together. He got more candy than he knew what to do with! We are looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas. The holidays are so fun:)



Sunday, October 14, 2012

California Adventure and Family Fun

The last week has been so fun for us. Jeremy's parents took the whole family to Disneyland for a week. We are so grateful for all the sacrifices they made for us. We had a great time. The best part was watching Britton be so enamored by everything. On the first day he was genuinely overwhelmed by all the sights and sounds. Every ride was a train and they were all Britton's trains. His favorites were Dumbo and Buzz Lightyear. He rode Dumbo at least 4 times and sobbed every time they took his feather away to start the ride. We got to see Carsland which was very cool. He loved seeing Lightning McQueen and Mater. He also very much enjoyed meeting all the characters. He would just giggle every time. His favorite was Minnie Mouse. He kissed her and laughed through the whole meeting. He tried to rip Mickey's nose off and hit him so I think he is a little jealous of Mickey and Minnie's relationship :) Here's some fun pics of our adventures.

Britton with Grandpa Kevin and Grandma Renee

Aunt Heidi, Britton, Tigger

Aunt Heidi, Dad, mom, Brit, and Pooh

Buzz Lightyear ride with Mama and Papa

Playing Mickey's Piano in his house

Meeting Mickey

Riding Dumbo with Daddy

Ridding Dumbo with Aunt Heidi

Mommy and Brit

Love my cute Family!

Thanks for everything Grandma and Grandpa!

He was so excited about his glowing ears

Britton and Minnie <3

Playing at Goofy's playground...so glad not to be in any lines!

After Disneyland we drove to Sacramento and spent some time just relaxing and visiting the train museum. Britton is still OBSESSED with trains and loves anything to do with trains. He loved walking around them, looking at them, and playing with them. He even got a few train souvenirs....he was in heaven. Here's a few shots of the museum




We had the best time and are so lucky to have such a good family. We are grateful for all that we have and recognize what an abundantly blessed life we live. It was so nice to be able to have a week off and just spend time together as a family. These were precious memories and moments that we will always be able to look back on. So thankful for my little family and all the love and support we receive. 

As an update to our efforts to increase our family, I will share that we are now seeing a fertility specialist at the U. We have not had any success the last few months, but he seems hopeful that things will work out. The medications they have me on are AWFUL and the side effects are equally miserable, but if it works I will be grateful. We keep praying that the Lord will bless us with another little one and have faith that things will work out in the Lord's time and in his way. 

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Summer fun

After finishing his finals for summer semester early we had about 4 weeks of Jeremy at home before he started back to school this fall. It was nice to have him around and we enjoyed spending lots of time together as a family. We frequented the park, the splash pads, and the rec center. My favorite part of having him home was just hanging out and watching movies with my guy. He just finished his first week back and we miss him already.  It will be worth it in the spring though when he is done. I am so grateful for his dedication in school. He works really hard and I am thankful for his diligence. He works so hard for us and we don't know what we would do without him. LOVE MY BOYS!

Britton has been growing like a weed. I swear he got at least an inch taller in the last month or two. He is speaking more and more every day and I love to hear the things he comes up with. His new favorite saying is ,"I'm sorry mommy". Any time that he is sad or falls down he always apologizes. I try to explain to him that he doesn't need to be sorry for those types of things, but that only makes him apologize more. It's really cute! He has loved the summer. He is a fish and loves to be in the water. His favorite place to go is the rec center pool. He laughs all the way down the big yellow slide. Here are a few photos of our trip to cherry hill and Britton sliding down the slide there. That was all he did the whole time!




We really had a good summer. It was fun to get to spend more time together and fun to watch Britton play. I'm a little sad that we are moving out of summer and into fall, but am looking forward to cooler temperatures and Halloween. Jeremy gets to take Halloween night off work so this will be our first trick or treating as an entire family. Halloween is Jeremy's favorite holiday and he already has costumes picked out!  We also have fun plans for the fall. We are headed back to Illinois for a visit with my family in September and are headed to Disneyland with Jeremy's family in October. So lots of fun things coming up for the Bergeson Family! We are truly blessed and I am so thankful!!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Waiting.....

The last two months have been hard for me and I have been in a little bit of a private funk. I am so grateful for a good husband who puts up with me and takes such good care of me. He is my rock and I am so thankful for his love and support.

Jeremy and I have been trying to have another baby for over a year now with no luck. After multiple tests and doctors visits it was determined that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.  One thing you never want to hear your OBGYN say is, "Man...your ovaries are hard and really big!" Basically what this means is that my ovaries are covered in lots of little cysts and as a result I am not ovulating. We have done 5 rounds of clomid (holy hot flashes batman!!) all with no success thus far. My doctor is trying one other treatment this month and if that does not work she is going to send us to a reproductive specialist. Going through this process has been humbling and hard. I have, however learned a few things along the way for which I am very grateful!

First of all I am so thankful to the Lord for my job. Working at LDS Family Services with birth mother's and adoptive couples has provided me with such an education on infertility and the beauty of adoption. I know that getting this job and being able to see the world of infertility at a deeper level has given me hope and faith that our family will be able to grow in the way and in the time frame of the Lord. Without this understanding I know our struggles to get pregnant would have been even more scary and difficult for me to deal with. I am so inspired daily by the women I come into contact with. Going through this has made me better able to understand where the couples I work with are coming from and have greater empathy for them. I feel bad sometimes feeling sorry for myself because there are so many other women out there who have waited much longer that I have without any success. I find it hard sometimes to talk about what is going on with us because there are so many without any children and my heart aches for them. I know that having Britton was truly a miracle and I am so thankful to the Lord for that little man. He fills my heart with a joy that I cannot fully explain.

Secondly I have learned a little bit more about waiting on the Lord. I swear sometimes the Lord continually tries to teach me patience because He knows I have none. I keep holding out hope that one day He will just say..."ok...no more trying to teach Stephanie patience....she's not going to get it!".  Unfortunately I don't believe that is going to happen. Through this process there were times when I would get discouraged and become complacent with the things that I knew I needed to do. I lacked the motivation to keep doing the little things that bring me peace like daily prayer and scripture study. I found that the more complacent I became the more in a funk I got. Thankfully the Lord woke me up and gave me a calling at church that requires a little more effort. How grateful I am to Him for that. Being with the Young Women has been so so good for me. I have seen and felt the love that the Lord has for them and it reminds me of the love He has for me. This calling has helped me focus more on the things that I need to do so that I can be worthy to help these girls. It has helped bring me back to focusing on the things that bring me peace and happiness.

Lastly, going through this trial has increased my faith. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God lives. He knows me and He knows the thoughts and intents of my heart. Though I am far from perfect and despite my weaknesses I know that He loves me. I know that in His way and in His time, Jeremy and I will be able to have more children in our home. Until then I know that as I strive to come closer to Him, He will calm my fears and give me peace. I am so thankful for the knowledge of the restored gospel. I am so thankful for my Savior, who suffered all things so that He could better understand my feelings and my pain. My favorite scripture is Doctrine and Covenants 6: 36-37 which reads, "Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not. Behold the wounds which pierced my side and also the prints of the nails in my hands and feet; be faithful, keep my commandments, and ye shall inherit the kingdom of heaven. Amen"  I am thankful for the scriptures and the peace I feel when I read them. It is my hope that through this trial I can learn, grow, and become stronger because of it. I appreciate the love and support of my family and friends. I am truly one of the luckiest women in the world!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

True Happiness....

May has been a good month for us! It started with Britton's birthday. I cannot believe my sweet baby boy is 2.  He is not supposed to be that big!  He is still OBSESSED with trains. He loves them. Every time he see's or hear's one it completely makes his day. We had a fun party with Grandma and Grandpa Bergeson on his birthday and then another one a week later in Illinois with Grandma and Grandpa Swensen. He is one loved and spoiled little boy.  He now has more trains than he knows what to do with. 





 

We were able to spend a week in Illinois with our family there. It is always nice to go back there and take life at a slower pace. I enjoyed being able to see Jeremy every day (with his school/work schedule that is a difficult thing to do!). We spent a lot of downtime together outside with the boy. His new thing is to take off running and yell, "I running". He can now say running, swinging, swimming, sleeping, and eating. It is really cute. He also is starting to understand emotion. He can tell when you are sad (pronounced shad) or happy.

One of my favorite things about going to Illinois is seeing Britton interact with his cousin Kirk. I hope that as the two grow up that they will be close. Kirk is such a sweet, kind little boy and he loves his cousin Brit. I want to make sure that they can spend time with each other as they grow up and I hope they always have a special connection.






We also were able to take family pictures this month. I hate having my picture taken, but I love documenting the growth of our little family. These two boys are the most important people in my life and I love being with them. Here are a few of my favorite shots:






I lead a very blessed life. I am truly thankful for the opportunities that have come my way. I believe that God in his infinite goodness has given me more than I deserve. I recognize His hand in my life and know that I would be nothing without Him. I also know that with His help we will be able to face any and all the challenges that will come our way. I am just grateful that I get to go through this life with my  sweet husband and amazing little boy! I am one lucky girl!